I am 21 and I Have a Deformed . I Want to Die. Should I End it All?

You are 21, you are in control of your life no matter what it may feel like. Bad things can happen to good people. I understand. It is very unlikely you will get brain damage from the sedation. However, surgery is a big thing to consider. Don't take it lightly. Remember, no matter how others think of you or what they call you. You have to live with yourself not them and you need to do what's right for you. Oh and try not to worry so much the what ifs are endless. What if you die in your sleep tonight, anything is possible. But what if you don't. Live each day to it's fullest and forgive the people who hurt you. I understand more than you know. It's going to be okay and you know in your heart what you want or don't want to do, you just want to hear someone else say it.